Off from medication.

October 30, 2011

I've feeling rather optimistic these days, not so gloomy already. Straightened out my thoughts already. Today is the day that i'm officially off from my medication, shall cope with my emotions and thoughts without the help of medication.

Have been quite attentive in school *self-praise* Going back to track and field this coming tuesday for training, skipped 1 week of training already. Need to start training for POLY50.

I can feel my own body is going Hay-wired, like can fall sick anytime. Must be the weather! hot and cold so suddenly. and i'm not sure if i can handle 3 days of intensive exercise every week, shall see how well i can take it and then decide again.

Some people really don't understand me when i say: I'm already having alot of problems already. When i say it, i mean it! i really do have hidden troubles handling this and that. Please don't judge me from the outside, i may look really fine and strong on the outside. But the fact is, i may or may not be dying inside out, struggling to handle myself and situations in my life.

And its not that i don't want to help, its out of my abilities. My schedule is packed, i need to study, go for cca etc. and i actually don't have much time for myself. My life now is stagnant, nothing much exciting is happening, its just: Me, Myself & I with lecture notes and my laptop. I've nothing else. I don't hang out with much people anymore cause i feel i need more time for myself.

Projects are slowly rolling in. Hope to finish everyone of them as soon as possible. and i hope this semester will pass soon.

Sorry for the wordy post, so here's a video to entertain you:

thanks to zihui for introducing this song to me

P/S: thinking of you every moment.

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